Sunday August 1, 2004

Back in a week

Category: Life & Me | 0 Comments | Posted 12:47

Ain't dead OR gone. Just offline for a while.

You can pretend I'm in Trysil with Mon. I am emailable with urgent matters tho.

Monday August 2, 2004

I am back

Category: Life & Me | 2 Comments | Posted 21:28

LMAO. I am not usually one to change my mind this quickly when I do this sorta stuff but what the fuck. Going completely offline is like going on a crash diet. Just doesn't work. So I will cut it down during the day and work on my dissertation instead, but talk to my people at night and - well I'll do whatever I damn well please.

Except when I have to work on my dissertation, cuz that's anything but pleasing. Did 970 words on it yesterday tho. And except when I'm at work, cuz that's even worse. Today was a fucking nightmare. First day after a month off and soooo damn busy and they just all annoy me. *sigh*

Anyway apart from that I am ok. Tomorrow I shall be productive again. Tonight I shall have fun. Fun is what it's all about. :|

One entry, two pics

Category: Photolog | 15 Comments | Posted 23:27

Ja so was bored and arranged some of my books in a nice colourful way. :P

Saturday is Pride Parade so the Pavillion is pink. How fucking cool?! :))

Tuesday August 3, 2004

Oh the mehness

Category: Life & Me | 9 Comments | Posted 23:15

Blah. Headaches suck. Been unproductive again (and I really can't afford to), spent most of the day in bed (headaches suck...) and some online... with nothing much to do... have dragged myself out of bed now cuz I guess I won't be able to sleep at all otherwise, but online is boring, no one on to talk to and nothing else to do and meh and ugh. Ja and headaches suck. Ah I love whingeing. I want my Mon back. *sigh*

I also want to go to another Placebo concert, like, badly, but there ain't none except for those 2 damn festivals and I can't really be bothered paying for lots of bands I don't like to see 30mins of Placebo or sth. Maybe I'll change my mind if I get more desperate. But they're right before my dissertation deadline too. Meh. Incidentally, this time last month I was at a Placebo concert. Well it was over by now but anyway. Was nice. Sigh.

Wednesday August 4, 2004

60 words...

Category: Life & Me | 17 Comments | Posted 17:37

... is what I've written today (dissertation you know). That's not so very impressive, and I am fast approaching the "ah well, too late in the day to start trying now" line... in fact I think I have crossed it already (and I guess the fact that I've just turned my Launch back on and am writing this entry is proof of that).

I have however been to the beach again, and swimming in the sea twice, which was hugely amusing! :D The waves were quite high and I was squealing with delight (I really was! don't laugh!). I love the sea. I love the fact that I live 5mins' walk from the sea. I love swimming and paddling in the sea. I love the sea. Oh and I did the dishes. I am so good. *lol*

Also today I got my mp3 player which I bought on eBay the other day. It is very funkay and has lots of useless but fun features (like phonebook, lyrics display..) and also some useful ones - FM radio and sound recording... oh and it plays mp3s too. And wma. All quite nifty. I should go out for a jog now with my new fun player.

Did I tell you I am very excited about next weekend? I think I mentioned it in the video entry. Ja so Brighton Pride and Matty and Kate and stuff! :D

Oh and guess what.. my uncle is currently visiting my mum to buy her a laptop (she has one from work but... well is complicated, anyway she wants her own) and to initiate her into the secrets of the Internet. I am fairly sure she will be intimidated and confused and give up on it 2 days after he leaves, but I am also a bit scared that she'll come across this little site before that. My uncle knows I am Clarissa online, he might wanna show her her daughter's little home on the Web!? :-n :)) :| Maybe I should delete all entries pertaining to a certain... very high Google result of mine, if you know what I mean. :| LOL

Er yeah that's all for now. Off to Asda now with my new mp3 player. Oh, visit Tom's diary, he finally has an About Me section now. (as well he should!! 8-})

Thursday August 5, 2004

PoMoPo w/ com*

Category: Randomness | 4 Comments | Posted 18:01

Ratatatatatatatatatatat! Ugh Meh. Shuffle.
(I was rudely woken by loud noise in the street. I read for a while.)
Clank hiss crackle munch.
(I got up and made myself some eggs on toast, which I then ate)
Click click dumdeedum click click taptaptaptaptaptaptaptapetc.
(I surfed around for a while then wrote some 300 words on my dissertation)
Woo splash gurgle splash splash aaaah ... hm!
(I went for a nice swim and lay sizzling in the sun for a while)
Woosh, taptaptap munch munch taptaptap yawn. Taptap.
(Quick shower, dissertation, rice & weg for lunch, more dissertation. Some chatting too.)
Sigh, blah, rustle. Munch.
(990 words. enough of this shit. off to bed for some reading. Hmm chocolate!)
(writing this entry. the end.)

* Postmodern Poem with commentary

Things I Do For You

Category: Michael Jackson | 7 Comments | Posted 22:06

I love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love Michael Jackson!!!!! :)) :D :x :yay

I am invincible

Category: Me about me | 2 Comments | Posted 23:52

I've just been for a late night walk, along the sea, through the little lanes off Madeira Drive, all in utter darkness and completely alone. It is dangerous I know. Someone could have mugged or raped me. But I was walking along and I was not afraid. I could have been anyone. I was who I pretended to be. And I pretended I had no reason to be afraid - so I wasn't.

Why be vulnerable?
Why be honest?
I am who I want to be.

So it goes. That used to be me. Pretending. Putting on an act. And I thought I'd found that it was wrong. Damned indecision and cursed pride. I remember thinking that and regretting. Feeling that I'd missed out on something. But I know now that I was right back then.

So there we go.
I am who I pretend to be.
And I am invincible.
Never again honest.
Never again vulnerable.

Friday August 6, 2004

Found Photos

Category: The Web | 7 Comments | Posted 19:32

This site shows private pictures randomly stolen from people on p2p filesharers.


I had some pics from New Year's Eve in Norway downloaded off me a couple of months back. Maybe they're on there? If anyone can be bothered to go through 40 pages to check, feel free. I won't - they weren't of me! :evil :))

Sunday August 8, 2004

Just a Teenage Dirtbag

Category: Life & Me | 3 Comments | Posted 19:30

Ja so my week-end is over. Well technically it isn't of course as it is Sunday 7pm, but the stuff I did is all over - i.e. Kate has just gone home and I am home alone again. Not for long tho as my flatmate should be returning shortly. I also have a Mon :x again which is very nice. :D I've been missing her. :-( She's not allowed to leave again. :no

I had an amazing time tho. So Saturday I went to Pride and met up with Matty and also met his dog and his boyfriend and other friends, who were all rather lovely. And I peed under a trailer and got a bit burnt and had a bit to drink and took some pics but not enough, and I had to leave again soon cuz I didn't wanna skip work. Which is very sad cuz I had a great time and I can't say often enough how lovely Matty is, and I really really really hope they'll move down here soon (and I ain't saying that to suck up). Having him around here would be pretty awesome. :x :D

Hm yeah so then I went to work - I was slightly drunk, which made it less boring I suppose, lol. Work was ok but not worth writing about.

Today Kate was here, which was fab too. It was very hot, we went shopping and sat on the beach and had sarnies at Frank-in-Steine and came home and looked at pics.... and chatted loads of course. Kate is wonderful too, I miss her sometimes, but at least she's in Southampton, so very near. I miss Joanne too, and she's in Hong Kong. Soon I won't have to miss Aspa anymore tho, cuz she'll be back in Brighton to do a PhD hopefully. (Kate, Joanne and Aspa are all uni friends and ex-housemates)


Category: Randomness | 8 Comments | Posted 22:06

Quand le ciel bas et lourd pèse comme un couvercle
Sur l'esprit gémissant en proie aux longs ennuis,
Et que de l'horizon embrassant tout le cercle
Il nous verse un jour noir plus triste que les nuits ;

Quand la terre est changée en un cachot humide,
Où l'Espérance, comme une chauve-souris,
S'en va battant les murs de son aile timide
Et se cognant la tête à des plafonds pourris ;

Quand la pluie étalant ses immenses traînées
D'une vaste prison imite les barreaux,
Et qu'un peuple muet d'infâmes araignées
Vient tendre ses filets au fond de nos cerveaux,

Des cloches tout à coup sautent avec furie
Et lancent vers le ciel un affreux hurlement,
Ainsi que des esprits errants et sans patrie
Qui se mettent à geindre opiniâtrement.

- Et de longs corbillards, sans tambours ni musique,
Défilent lentement dans mon âme ; l'Espoir,
Vaincu, pleure, et l'Angoisse atroce, despotique,
Sur mon crâne incliné plante son drapeau noir.

    Charles Baudelaire - Les Fleurs du Mal

(translation in the comments)

Never a better, more poignant and more expressive, more beautiful and more powerful description of depression. Bloody amazing. I wonder why they made us study that at A-levels. How would we ever understand unless we'd been there? How can you analyze word-by-word something so obviously emotional and inexplicable? I wish I had my Fleurs du Mal here now.

Monday August 9, 2004

By request... quoting myself

Category: Randomness | 2 Comments | Posted 23:15

clarissa (9:52:01 PM): not much can happen with him anyway. he keeps me occupied

clarissa (7:05:39 PM): tho I haven't spoken to him in a few days

clarissa (2:27:38 PM): barely spoken to him lately, just 1 text

clarissa (8:52:55 PM): no, "fun" isn't the word

clarissa (8:53:05 PM): more of a... necessity somehow

clarissa (2:24:05 PM): you're not allowed to be afraid :|

clarissa (12:45:44 AM): at least you're only like this when you're drunk :|

clarissa (7:00:59 PM): there may be no later

clarissa (9:40:45 PM): we will have to drown ourselves in the canal :D

Tuesday August 10, 2004

I repeat myself

Category: Michael Jackson | 3 Comments | Posted 17:20

In our darkest hour
In my deepest despair
Will you still care?
Will you be there?
In my trials
And my tribulations
Through our doubts
And frustrations
In my violence
In my turbulence
Through my fear
And my confessions
In my anguish and my pain
Through my joy and my sorrow
In the promise of another tomorrow
I’ll never let you part
For you’re always in my heart.

Hmmmm... :-s

My Matty

Category: Photolog | 6 Comments | Posted 20:51

:x And his Sasha. I have permission to post. Sorry for claiming ownership of yet another person. ;;) He too lovely to share. :no (but Scott may borrow him off me :evil)

Wednesday August 11, 2004

I hate decisions

Category: Randomness | 11 Comments | Posted 13:48

Shall I go for a jog?

Or for a swim in the sea?

Shall I have a bath?

Or dye my hair?

Shall I go to the bottle bank?

Or to Asda to ask about my leave?

Aah the amount of time wasted....

Done it again

Category: Life & Me | 8 Comments | Posted 23:44

Just spent a fortune on Amazon. Well not a fortune but quite a bit anyway. You know when you really want one book and then they go "spend another £22.50 to qualify for Supersaver delivery" - can you resist!?!?! Well I can't! So 6 more books to add to my collection. I really have to find some book-swapping club around here... I'm sure that exists.

I've also been for a late night drive... I was gonna go for a walk along the sea but then it was raining and I don't like getting wet. Driving is only fun when it's fast, and the nearest motorway is quite far... but ah well, I raced up the A23 at 190kmh (118mph) instead. Not the whole time of course. Sometimes. It was exhilarating and only slightly scary (cuz dark and rainy). I'm not perfect but I am free.

Tomorrow I'll go jogging, and next month I'll go see a counsellor. Next year I'll go to Africa and next... er... decade everything will be sorted out. *lol*

Thursday August 12, 2004

I have new hair

Category: Life & Me | 11 Comments | Posted 17:31

Well a new hair colour. No, not even that, but a new shade of red anyway.So here's some before and after pics for you. Mhm.


Apart from that everything is fairly meh. I am very bored, I fucking hate my dissertation (13,590 words and not going anywhere), I miss my Pet® and online is very slow and annoying. Actually, life is annoying. Might be PMT tho, who knows.

PS One year ago I was at my very first Placebo concert. *sob*

Friday August 13, 2004

Update you lazy fucks!!!

Category: Randomness | 12 Comments | Posted 23:31

I mean all you people in my links and the ones with secret diaries too. I am so fucking bored, I need entertainment!!!!!!!

Mhm. I've changed some things around on this here thing. Bit of a cleanup. Also out of boredom I guess. I am now learning Goethe's Faust by heart while I'm at work - keeps me occupied and trains my brain. *lol*

Only 4 days til I go to Riga to visit Lo now! :o Very soon and very scary as
1. I will totally miss my connecting flight in Vienna. (as only 30mins transfer time!)
2. I haven't found anyone to do my Friday shift yet. (I realised very late that it was so soon)
3. I am so not gonna finish my dissertation, ever. *sigh*
But I will be with a Lo :x and not hanging around here being so incredibly bored.
And now I am going to bed. Night!

Saturday August 14, 2004

Just add water, stir in lime

Category: Randomness | 3 Comments | Posted 16:12

Mhm. I have nothing interesting to say but I am posting all the same. I have quite a record of achievement for today. Written some 950 words (!), which brings me up to 14,515 - (incl. footnotes and endnotes of course, but what do you expect). I have also tidied and cleaned my room (the soot-like dust that gathers within days - I assume it's from exhaust fumes - is utterly disgusting) and washed some black clothes (the blackness is very relevant). Handwashing clothes isn't so bad, it's the drying that's a pain.

Yeah so considering it's only 4pm, that is quite remarkable. I am off to work in about 20mins - wish me luck regarding the shift-covering business. *sigh* I'm so hopeless (but I am free, lol). Looking at the Asda car park below I can tell it's gonna be busy again, but that's to be expected on a Saturday and it's only some 4hrs... plus I have my stuff to learn by heart. I wonder if people notice that I am rather distracted... and probably muttering to myself! :)) :wh

Change of subject. Don't you find those pseudo-poetic domain names that many girls choose rather interesting (and a bit pretentious)? One could do a study about them. Random samples taken from Skyler's pluggage:

Hm. Then you have Woo! :))
Um ok that is all I think, I must be off. One day soon I will write an utterly riveting diary entry. Promise! :|

Sunday August 15, 2004

Late nights...

Category: Randomness | 7 Comments | Posted 1:43

watching Ally (McBeal) - yes I know the joke is getting old - inspires all these really deep thoughts in me... about sanity, happiness, men, women, life, you know, all that existential stuff. Stuff like this:

Garble warble zant ya ya! Morgle bleee siddielah, furch hergromarch?? 8-| Neeeeh, krapeesh ter woasah! Freck drickle kro badoolie, ne wah simmeeee ferm shaiss broch feekee hums. Djo! X( Märt hems purch kisgrow, heh hamma spue latt morgle ya. Ha. Nee yom ble furväckt soolie.

Exactly. All complete and utter rubbish.
(Any hidden messages are entirely unintentional.)

What was I THINKING!?

Category: Mon & Lo updates | 3 Comments | Posted 22:28

So Mon is making me update. Well, she's not making me... well she tried to make me but then I got her to update first... so that makes it more fun. Her update is very cute but that was to be expected, her being the Mon that she is. :x And she even wrote more than 5 sentences (which was the mininum I had set her).

But that's not why I said "what was I thinking?" I said that because... well I was under the impression my flight(s) to Riga (via Vienna) were quite late on Tuesday. But I must have got that mixed up with the Norway one, because it is in fact quite early on Tuesday. 6.35am to be exact. Which means I have to catch the bus to Heathrow at 3.10am on Monday night. Thank God there are buses all through the night cuz otherwise I would have had to catch an even earlier one and stayed overnight at Heathrow... then again it doesn't really make much of a difference cuz 3.10 still means I won't get any sleep at all, unless I fall asleep on the coach itself, which wouldn't be a good idea cuz then I'd probably miss my stop and end up at Stansted or something like that. :|

Ja so as Mon said in her entry, and as I have said previously, I am going to Riga to visit Lo. Some people accuse me of travelling a lot or even too much. It's weird cuz I never was under that impression... but I guess depending on how you look at it I really do travel a lot. Never too much tho. And I'm only ever visiting friends so I get to stay over for free so I am entitled to travelling more. :D In September I'll go to Paris, finally. :x And there's a few other places I need to go. I don't want a job. :no Travelling is much more fun! :D

Is that enough entry? ;;)

Oh ja and also...

Category: Randomness | 5 Comments | Posted 23:21

I love Mon. :x
Especially the dimples.
But also the rest of her.
I love her so much I even did an impression of the =)) smiley for her! :|

Tuesday August 17, 2004

And then there was...

Category: Randomness | 10 Comments | Posted 2:03

Here's another rubbish update for you. I have the right to post shit for I am killing time. It's midnight, I am leaving for Heathrow Riga in roughly 3 hours. Ok I haven't actually started packing yet but that will take me like 30mins. So I have plenty of time. Plenty. (|

I have lost my Miseducation of Lauryn Hill CD. Now I wouldn't be too worried if it was only the CD as I tend to shove them in all sorts of places. But it's the CD, the sleeve AND the booklet. And that ain't so good. :-n I want my Lauryn!! :((

[...] Um yeah I'm pretty much done packing. 1hr20mins to go. Been thinking about all the online people I've met since I first started using the Net in 1997. I tried to count but it's impossible, there are so many, especially with all the MJ events and also the Falco meetings. So only counting the ones I'd spoken to personally before meeting them (rather than on a messageboard or mailinglist) I got to around 40 (tho I'm convinced I missed some)... exactly 20 of which I have stayed with overnight (or they with me). 21 soon. And I am still alive! :D

My Lauryn CD has not turned up btw. *sigh* 1hr to go. Must shower and take travel sickness pills. God, I can't believe I thought I'd be working on my dissertation on the bus. I wonder if I can ask the driver to wake me up when we get to Heathrow. I love Michael Jackson btw. Also lots of other people, they're wonderful, I miss them and I wish things were easier. Deserted island is all I say. Aah to live in a dream world. Right, the end, I will go now, have fun y'all, be jealous for soon I will have a Lo, and don't miss me too much, I'll be back soon anyway.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!! :* :* :*

PS Oh yes, while going thru old CDs today I came across the very first version of this site... from around March 2002. It's kinda fun, so for your viewing pleasure while I will be with my Lo (and updating less) here is ClarissaWeb 2002 - enjoy!! (Some of the links don't work and almost all the "external sites" on the right have moved. Don't miss the dropdown menus!)

PPS OMG I am so fucking tired!!!! :|

Wednesday August 18, 2004

I have a Lo!!!!!

Category: Mon & Lo updates | 12 Comments | Posted 14:01

So I am in Riga, where there is a Lo (in other words, I have a Lo). She is very cute and very pretty and all mine (in case you didn't know muahahaha).

Yesterday we walked around Old Riga and Lo showed me nice buildings and I was being very touristy and took lots of pictures. There are tons of tourists here, mainly Germans (but as we know, Germans, much like the Dutch, are everywhere), also French and Italian. Not seen any Dutch so far (so maybe they are not everywhere). I bought a nice green bag for my stuff (paying with Latvian Lats, hehe). And Lo took me to eat dumplings. And when we got home Lo's mum fed me loads more food. :P

Ja, um... I was very tired all day yesterday as I had travelled all night (and altho I slept on the bus and on both planes, that only amounted to a few hours of sleep), so after the sightseeing we went to the beach where I slept some more, then came home where I slept again... then we were online for a while and watched Placebo (I wanna see them agaaaiiin) and talked and played with the rat and the cat (separately), and because online was boring we went to bed around 11ish... and I slept until 1pm today. :o :)) *ahem*

Hehe. Ja and now we will go back into Riga and do more sightseeing, woooo!!!

Thursday August 19, 2004


Category: Randomness | 7 Comments | Posted 21:19

Chant with me... 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov 5th Nov!!!

What more could I want???
So I am ecstatic right???


Friday August 20, 2004

I am still heeere...

Category: Mon & Lo updates | 9 Comments | Posted 17:38

They're bullying me into updating again. :| "Them" being the usual Mon & Lo (hence the category) and also TrisTris.

So today we had rain. We got stuff done before it started raining tho. Yesterday it didn't rain until we were back home, which was fun. The day before too. I think the rain today is telling me to do some work on my dissertation - well guess what!? Screw you rain! :|

Er yeah anyway. Enough about the weather. I have seen much of Riga (well, I'm sure there's more I haven't seen but you know... I've seen quite a bit). Lo is a very cute guide. Sometimes she gets lost and has to get out her map (not to be confused with M.A.P.), but most of the time she doesn't, and she knows a lot of stuff about Riga. As does her guidebook. Also, as already mentioned, she has this cuteness thing going on. :P

So we've been to many museums, to parks, to churches, to top floor bars in Hotels, to church towers, to streets with nice houses, to the beach, to cemeteries, to the canal, to McDonald's, to the market, to shops and to countless other places I am forgetting now. Pics will probably be up when I get home.

I generally slept far too long every single day, which is bad of course, but was much fun. Lo didn't go to her German class today, evil child, but instead was up almost all night flirting with Seb, who seems to be under the impression that he owns her. He is of course utterly mistaken. Eeeeveryone and eeeeverything is mine, incl. Lo's fluffy cat who I am taking home with me.

Oh and for all those less in tune with my Placebo obsession, that previous entry was about the fact that they (Placebo, dumbass!) will be playing Wembley on 5th November and I will be there (of course), hopefully along with my most adorable properties Mon and Lo. Lo and Mon. L:xM:xn-M:xnL:x. Much drooling shall be done. It's ages yet but very very very very exciting. :D =P~ :yay

BTW, random fact - one's first encounter with a far-away friend's mobile is a very emotional occasion. I mean, computers all look the same and if you chat to someone on Yahoo you'll know what it will look like on the other end. But to lay eyes on the mobile for the first time... this little device on which so many text messages have been composed... it's something words fail to describe. A very intense moment. :P

OK that's enough craptalk, Lo is getting impatient. ;;)

Saturday August 21, 2004

Taking pictures of Lo...

Category: Life & Me | 5 Comments | Posted 22:32

is totally impossible.

Sorry people.

(well I have some, but none that I could show)

Ja, so this will be my last Riga update (for a while at least). Am all packed and ready for bed. Tomorrow will be spent travelling... leaving here at 11am and expecting to be home around 9pm UK time - 11pm Riga time - so exactly 12hrs travelling. (| Well I should get enough time to work on my dissertation at least. :|

Ok bye for now everyone. *waving*
I miss my Lo already! :-(

Monday August 23, 2004

Back again...

Category: Life & Me | 8 Comments | Posted 11:09

... and very Loless. :(( :(( :(( She ain't even online!!! (where is she???). Nor is anyone else but I guess that's to be expected on a Monday morning. At least I have my LaunchCast to keep me company. Don't mention the D-word!!! (Dissertation that is - eek I said it!) I did get some reading done on my way back, maybe I can draw another 2000 words from that. Now I just have to write them.... tonight. :|

The trip home wasn't so bad actually. I mean long and boring in part, but at least there was diversity - plane, airport, plane, airport, bus.. you know. Very exciting stuff. Got some shopping done in Frankfurt tho, and Lufthansa seats are quite comfortable (lots of leg room - even more so when you're at the emergency exit 8-}). No annoying kids as neighbours either. At Heathrow I ended up at the wrong terminal for baggage reclaim (apparently lots of people do it, so shut it) and had to be led back into the right area (huge hassle - lazy airport people), so obviously I was late for my bus... but lo and behold, the bus was late too so I didn't miss it! :D For once I didn't hate the M25. *hehe*

So as I said.. I am back home. I am feeling shaky and hungry but there is not much to eat in the house and I am too lazy to go shopping. I've just boiled some eggs. I like boiled eggs. So work today, then much dissertation-writing (there's that word again). Sounds like fun uh? It is. Matty isn't moving down to Worthing (yet) after all which is very depressing. Vega is in Brighton now tho so will meet up with her and have a Bowie orgy and call her Pet. Hopefully. :-n Then once my dissertation is done I will change my life completely and become a different person. No honest! Stay tuned... :|

PS I have the "hold control while clicking links" disease again. 8-|
PPS Here's the only authorized Lopic for you. *hehe*

Tuesday August 24, 2004

Lots of pics

Category: Photolog | 10 Comments | Posted 10:59

Wooo procrastination rocks!!!!
I have Word open tho! :P
Anyway here's a sample of pics from Riga...

Continue reading "Lots of pics"


Category: Randomness | 0 Comments | Posted 17:12

Wam: Pet® :((
Lo: just talk to him
Wam: :(( NO!
Lo: :|

PS 113 words. Hooray. 1887 to go. (|

117 words

Category: Randomness | 2 Comments | Posted 21:05

I'm doing great eh.




Category: Randomness | 4 Comments | Posted 22:26

d: you should update
d: only three updates today
wam: :))

PS 195 words.
PPS edit. 0:15, still 195, fuckit, going to bed. (|

Wednesday August 25, 2004


Category: Randomness | 2 Comments | Posted 16:51

I am liking this. Somewhat poignant I daresay.


Thursday August 26, 2004


Category: Opinionated | 25 Comments | Posted 0:20

I am loving:
Mon, Lo, Robin Meltzer, Seb, digestives, petty fights on MJNI, happycamper (hehe), Tom, squiZZ, Brian fucking Molko, Katja, French, Michael Jackson, Maynard sours.

I am hating:
my dissertation, Shakespeare, Fiona, comment spam, pratts (& loving them), people who will see Placebo this weekend, myself.

I won't deny there are some inconsistencies here. *lol*


Category: Randomness | 8 Comments | Posted 12:39

Dave Matthews Band's Big Stink


Saturday August 28, 2004

It is finished

Category: Life & Me | 20 Comments | Posted 13:38

35 pages
19,120 words
98,446 characters
277 paragraphs
1,632 lines

Monday I will re-read, correct, format and print.
Tuesday I will drive to Coventry, bind and hand in.

Oooh all the exciting stuff I can do now!!! :D :D :D

  • read the 10 or so books I still have waiting for me
  • watch LOADS of Ally (McBeal)

  • meet up with Vega
  • email lots of people

  • tell my mum all about Riga :D
  • chat to lots of people
  • go to Lancing College Chapel again
  • go to Luxembourg & Paris

  • work on a new layout
  • send letters/parcels to Mon & Lo
:D :yay :D :yay

Oh and also...

  • tidy my room
  • unpack my suitcase
  • find a job
:-s :| *lol*
Anyway. Is exciting! :D

Did you know?

Category: Randomness | 0 Comments | Posted 21:42

Stephen Biko died 2 days after I was born.

(more here or here)


So far then... (longer entry)

Category: Randomness | 7 Comments | Posted 22:00
  • I have told my mum about Riga. She wasn't particularly surprised, nor was she terribly interested. "oh yes, Lithuania isn't it?" - "Latvia actually" - "ah well, one of them anyway". She was surprised about the dissertation tho. She said she'd given it something like a 10% chance. Nice. Not that I had expected anything else from her (maybe that she'd put more trust in my fear of her expectations... ah but that's a complicated matter)
  • I have booked a one day return on Eurotunnel for Sept 12th (for this is the cheapest way to travel). Straight to Paris to finally give my mum the holiday I've promised her for months and kept postponing cuz I had... other places to visit. Then to Lux where I have some matters to attend to, and returning to the UK on the 18th hopefully. I'd rather not go by car but by plane it's either unaffordable (€415 one way!!!) or unfeasible (Stansted to Hahn (|). It's gonna be stressful but I'm very excited about Paris. It's been almost a year! :o That's just wrong. :no And I will see my Caroline again too! :D
  • Er yeah that's pretty much it so far, except I've been chatting to people too, but I always do that. I've also bought some stuff for sending purposes. Maybe I'll go to Lancing Chapel tomorrow... if the weather is nice. And if I can be bothered. Otherwise I'll just read. Aaaah read... :x
Ja so much for my plans and all that. BTW my Matty has a diary now and I urge you all to visit it (& comment), it's here (hosted by mememe, hehe). He's also coming to see Placebo with us in November!! :D Am very excited! Oh also Katja and I have a fun forum for literary and other matters... right here. Is mainly German tho. I miss my Mon who ain't been online much, also d (not mine apparently) who's been online even less, and Lo, who's been online but is rather far away. And my Pet, but that is an entirely different matter.

I was very hyper when I got back from work earlier and was explaining to Lo how that's scary cuz it never lasts and after hyperness there's always downness, and so there is, but the downness isn't so bad right now. I am off until Friday now (since I will be "ill" on Monday :wh), and that is fun. The rest... can be ignored for a while. I deserve a break. Maybe I'll ring Christy and spend Tuesday night in Oxford. Maybe not. Next up is Vega. That too is exciting!

OK that's enough entry for you tonight! I'm still hoping I'll actually have something worthwhile to say one day. I am SO... knowledgeable and opinionated and wise and stuff. Hang on in there! :|

Sunday August 29, 2004

A Fun Family Day Out

Category: Life & Me | 10 Comments | Posted 20:45

Today was Sunday - and a bank holiday weekend too! A perfect day for a family outing! And so it was with our little household too. It had been a long time since our last day out together. Consequently I wrapped up my BML in a warm jumper and packed her into my Lara for a trip to the lovely Lancing College Chapel...

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Monday August 30, 2004


Category: Randomness | 2 Comments | Posted 20:23

Briiiaaaaaan =P~ =P~ =P~ =P~ =P~ =P~ =P~


(shut it Tom!)

Fragment (consider revising)

Category: Life & Me | 20 Comments | Posted 23:30

Screw you!
Scrough yewe?
Scrue yoo.

Well ja so anyway. I am done with my dissertation. Forever and ever. Right now my printer is working hard, very hard. 60 pages. Twice please. I think it hates me. I don't care much tho. It used to have a name but I forgot.

FUN-FUN as my MAP says. I love my MAP, she's really rather special. She makes me feel special too. My job doesn't make me feel so special. I ended up going to work after all today, cuz I felt bad about calling in sick on a bank holiday again (done once before back in May), but it was rather horrible so I convinced them to let me leave at around 4pm. Nice. People just piss me off. How dare they intrude on my existence!?

God, all the food I have in the house is boring. I have to change my eating habits. I have to change a lot of things. Now would be the time - what with me no longer being a student and all. Tomorrow's the last day. Ever. No more stretching it out. No more delaying the inevitable. Time to grow up (lol I distinctly remember saying this once before). How fun.

Bah anyway, that's just far too serious and depressing stuff to think about on a night like this. Printing is done, so I shall leave you. I bid you farewell.