I am back.

As you can see. Can’t be bothered elaborating really. Was moved to a new server cuz of downtimes and then it just… ooooh whatever. But if you can read this then it is back for you (takes a while for DNS to propagate).

Apart from that I don’t wanna talk about nothing much. The sea is beautiful. I will get our Placebo tickets tomorrow. I am oh so tired. And right now I am having a really tough time keeping the balance between the normal world with normal people, and this other world with all its drama.

Normal world, normal people, please stick with me, please don’t give up on me if sometimes I cannot conform to your expectations. I am trying, I am working on it, I want this, at least I think so. I may find out it is not for me in the end and in that case I apologize for wasting your time. But please give me a chance.

And you know (you readers, not ‘you normal world’) I just realised that Rick is the first fag I am obsessing over who is “normal” (i.e. not obviously fucked up). Being who I am (overanalysing things that is) I have come up with two possible explanations:

1. he actually is fucked up and my fuckedup-radar has subconsciously picked that up. (there have been indicators of this but nothing major)
2. I am, right now, desperately seeking a normal obsession and there he is! Perfect distraction from fuckedupfags whom I love far more than I can deal with.

And then there is of course option 3:

1. no reason at all. I just stupidly started obsessing over Rick. There does not have to be an explanation for everything does there.

But of course I don’t buy that one. There must be a reason! Which I may not have worked out yet, but it is probably there.

And to finish I shall quote Jeff (who is not gay and still marvellous) who said, upon hearing about Rick:
I really do want to explore your enthusiasm for the obviously gay. None of us can ever change what floats our boat, but does this one lead to something fulfilling…
(which is similar to something my Angel Person said the other night)

I said I’d just quote. So I shall not comment. I will now sleep. Tomorrow normal-fag-obsession. Yay.