Procrastination 101

This amuses me greatly, so let me share. And then ramble on a bit about my life.

When I was in New York in October I went to the Brooklyn Art Library a few times to look at sketchbooks. It was great fun, it was helpful inspiration for my own 2012 sketchbook, and it was only 5mins by bike from where I was staying. One of the sketchbooks I read had this about 4-5 pages in:

I thought this was pretty damn funny – I love me a good procrastinator, and I could totally relate (tho I had finished mine on time). Today I went through the photos again and thought to visit the URL she gives *teeheehee* – of course this was only logical. And somehow made my day! ^_^

This entry, incidentally, is also procrastination in action as I should be working on my 2012 sketchbook, but I still have no clue whatsoever what I want to do with it. I should however also be updating this blag more often, so some good will come of it at least. I have been unemployed for about 10 days now and I’d be lying if I said I didn’t enjoy it. It’s great. I am not nearly as productive as I’d like to be, but I’m also not as lazy as I feared I might be. I do get a bit panicked from time to time thinking about… the uncertainty of my situation, the general economic outlook, the risk that I might find this too comfortable to ever want to work again… but it’s a mild and manageable panic.

Oddly though, I am also feeling strangely disconnected, as if I existed in a vacuum or indeed not at all. I feel it online more than in real life. It’s like it wouldn’t matter to anyone if I simply ceased to exist. It’s silly because 1. it’s not true and 2. to the extent that it is, it’s largely my fault because this is the life I chose for myself, and still do. When given the chance to go somewhere and meet people (e.g. the final leaving drinks of two ex-colleagues), I still don’t have the energy to go and prefer solitude. So then who am I to complain, right? Mhm. I think it’s a form of longing for the past, when I was part of a stronger and more active community. And I guess I’m also sad that I have yet again lost a person or two [*cough* Thomas *cough*], even tho it was all too predictable.

Better be off to look at some more sketchbooks now. Swimming later!
PS I’ve just noticed that I don’t seem to be using smileys at all anymore in my blag entries. Interesting.