Monday December 8, 2003

I need help?

Category: Self-analysis | 10 Comments | Posted 4:02

I'm weird. Well that's what they tell me. Them ones that are "normal" (whatever that is) and some of those who aren't too. I definitely ain't "normal" (whatever that is), and I'm fine with that too. I dunno if listening to Will You Be There over and over and over makes me weirder still. I guess it does, in the eyes of the non-MJ-fan, or the "normal" person.

I also did a post about the squiZZsexiness® (twice cuz crashed) on the MJNI board, then deleted cuz felt slightly embarrassed about the extent of my obsession (and also cuz I was afraid some ppl might agree and grow obsessed too and I ain't prepared to share... with most  people)... so that makes me weird too right?

Yes that and other things. Ah but I did talk to my mum about things. Fuckedupness and stuff. Of course she doesn't get me, nor do I get her, but at least we had something to talk about, without shouting. Hehe, will go to bed now, with my CDplayer & my Dangerous CD - I'm weird like that, needing Michael Jackson to put me to sleep when I feel like this. But I can live with that too. As long as there's something.

Tomorrow I shall wake up listening to Michael Jackson. I live in a fantasy world. That's ok, I like the fantasy world much better than I like the real world. I'm glad I can carry my fantasy world around with me; I'll never feel lonely. (and I ain't being cynical about this, I really mean it.)


i'm a little distressed about this article thats going to be read by the wall street journal subscribers/buyers today..
i couldnt get into the chitchat forum, so i thougt i'd spam you here.. and looks like you're on the subject anyway.. identity, self-analysis. and i thought fans who know a bit of this stuff would respond..
Check this topic..

i'm kinda mad that EDUCATORS can be this ignorant..and well. but you must be sleeping now. HAPPY AWAKENING to Michael

Posted by: superjay at December 8, 2003 08:36 AM

So who's told you you're weird this time??

Posted by: The BML at December 8, 2003 10:18 AM

I like that fantasy world too. I will never leave.

Posted by: Jess at December 8, 2003 01:34 PM

hmmm... a thouhgt...
is one really living in a fantasy, when one is aware of the "real world"? (knows that the real world is that) or maybe that's the fine line between insanity and sanity. being aware of that the fantasy world is not real, and that there is a real world out there... hm...

and keeping it like that, prevents you from going insane?

Posted by: miriam at December 8, 2003 02:16 PM

Hey superjay, thanks for the link. Have skimmed the article, but I don't think I'll respond to the guy. I've long given up on things like that. Weird that you can't access the board tho.

LOL @ BML, no one in particular. They all tell me that, in general. My mum, friends, etc.

Mir, you can know the real world is there, but refuse to live in it, that is you choose only the fantasy world for yourself. And I think then you can't live an independent life. Hm yeah maybe that would be insanity then. I don't know if I'm there - right now I think I am (tho I wouldn't call myself insane, lol), but I'm hoping I can return to the real world once I'm in the UK.

Posted by: Clarissa at December 8, 2003 03:14 PM

I think you will though... I mean you'll probably have a 9-5 job I'd have thought, so will be out most of day anyway. I think it's just coz at the moment you're online all the time, but I think it'll change.

Online is SO boring anyway, am gonna be on less.

Posted by: The BML at December 8, 2003 03:32 PM

LOL yes so we keep saying

Posted by: Clarissa at December 8, 2003 03:41 PM

LMAO I know, but no one does anything about it.

*takes stand*

Well I plan to!

Posted by: The BML at December 8, 2003 05:57 PM

Well I don't.

Posted by: Clarissa at December 8, 2003 06:04 PM

yes, exactly. @ citz

Posted by: miriam at December 8, 2003 06:53 PM