Wednesday November 12, 2003

I hate my mum

Category: Opinionated | 17 Comments | Posted 0:56

Yeah well I just thought I'd say it. Those of you who read my whole diary incl. the comments will know how it started... well, how it started THIS time, and any other time, and then there's all the stuff before I ever started this diary... anyway I've basically ended up at a point where I'm wondering if I still have any positive feelings left for her, AT ALL. She has nothing but contempt for me, and the more I think about it, the more convinced I am that it has always been this way.

I used to feel the need to explain and justify things to her, but at the end of the day I could never say anything she would appreciate, so why should I even try. I am full of self-doubts, I am scared of the future, and of myself, but her telling me I'm a failure is not gonna help in any way. Does that sound self-righteous and ungrateful? I don't care.

Anything I say to her she will use against me. Why should I ever talk to her again? I've never been a family person, so that's not gonna tie me to her. There was some sort of bond between us when my dad was still around cuz we could complain about him when he was being a bastard, and there was a bond when he died cuz we both missed him. Now there is nothing left whatsoever, only mutual contempt. Hooray.

Will make things much easier - she will be glad I'm gone, I won't need to feel guilty for leaving her, and if she does decide to smash her head against a motorway bridge pillar it will make it easier for me to get over her.


Just noticed this.

>>I am full of self-doubts, I am scared of the future, and of myself, but her telling me I'm a failure is not gonna help in any way

GOD no. I feel the exact same. Totally do NOT get the point.

>>she will be glad I'm gone, I won't need to feel guilty for leaving her, and if she does decide to smash her head against a motorway bridge pillar it will make it easier for me to get over her.


Posted by: The BML at November 12, 2003 01:05 PM

Damn smilies.

Posted by: The BML at November 12, 2003 01:05 PM

Hm yeah.

Posted by: Clarissa at November 12, 2003 01:12 PM

"but her telling me I'm a failure is not gonna help in any way."

no, it's not, and no parent should tell their child somethign like that.

"Does that sound self-righteous and ungrateful?"

not at all.

Posted by: miriam at November 12, 2003 06:28 PM

Thanks Mir
Esp as you often seem to agree with my mum

Posted by: Clarissa at November 12, 2003 08:07 PM


I'm shocked. lol

was only that one time,. when I thought you had been rude to her.

Posted by: miriam at November 12, 2003 10:48 PM

LOL hhmmm....

Posted by: Clarissa at November 13, 2003 12:08 PM

clarissa, sounds like my mum, but how screwed up is this, im out doing xmas shopping, give my mum a call to see what makeup she wears etc. and al;l i get is 'where did you get the money ra ra ra' so im leftstanding there like a dick while getting screwed at by my mum for spending the money i saved to buy her a xmas present, its so bloody disheartening, and after i do get her something and get home she immediately starts again, u know i think ive had enough,so many times ive said im gonna never speak to her again, but i do, maybe this time im so pissed off that she can fucking spend christmas day without me, ill go get high in my car somewhere. I just wish for some respect you know? all started when my sister went ot uni, whenever she would come back it would be the biggest thing ever to my mum, and now when i come back from uni, all i get is 'why are you back... we payall this money and you come back ra ra ra' im just like FUCK U!!! i wish that i didnt have to come back. God all my problems coming together and making me feel like shit, mothers are supposed to be there wateva, no?? She also dont know i know about this affair shes having, WELL I FUCKING DO MOTHER. I really just need to chill out, but she gets to me no end. So clarissa my words to you are damn you are not alone, mothers are hated the world over. I just hope that your actually makes the effort once in a while coz i havnt seen my mum happy since i was 10, and i turned 19 last week...

Posted by: Jimmytheg at December 16, 2003 06:52 PM

I so agree, my mums such a bitch, she always makes me work when no ones else mums do, she wont let me go out in my holiday she expects me to work!!! i hate her so much now...

Posted by: sammy at December 29, 2003 04:41 PM

i dont care what anyone says. about 6 months ago my sister told my mum and dad she was gay and its ruined me, i HATE MY MUM she shouts at me everyday. i can't live with it anymore i cant tell no one about her and what about all this shit some one says about 'oooh tell dad' well dad dont give a shit either if he did he would of sone something by now and i dont care about her.

i remember when i used to argue back she used to get more mad and shout more then i remember when i used to ignore her so she used to get more angry now im at the stage where she shouts and i listen and let it sink in and it gets rotten and begins to hurt.

Posted by: Kayley at January 2, 2004 11:20 PM

i hate my mum to! everything i do is wrong its really fucking hurtful. She calls me a heartless bitch bcoz i dont help her in the house but she needs a wake up call people my age should b out enjoyin themselves not polishing the living room!!

Posted by: MARYDOL X( at January 7, 2004 11:56 PM

i totally agree with what ur sayin, my mum is exactly the same i hate her. well done for saying what u really feel. i wish i could say this hsit to my mum

Posted by: amanda at January 8, 2004 10:19 AM

hey its refreshing to hear someone else bitching about their mums. I am really upset with mine, as i can not tell her anything with out something negative or nasty to be attached to it. I get no praise although i have now finished my uni degree, and i can't remember the last time she said she loved me.

I would just like to point out though what i am upset about has nothing to do with cleaning the house i think everyone should do this it shows that you are proud of yourself and can also look after yourself and your things. Do what you can for your mum, but to train them out of negative comments that hurt instead of encourage well thats a mind boggling issue that if anyone knows the answer to can you tell my mum.!!

Posted by: lucinda at January 20, 2004 08:26 AM

OMG i agree with all of you! mu mums a total hore. she has depression and sometimes doesnt take her happy pills.... damn i wish she was dead!

shes so embarassing when we go to shops plz dont laugh wen i tell you this. we were at a shop she wanted to get clothes for her brother so she tells the shop assistant that we (me and my sis) want to play "sister eye for the streight guy"
(ya know from "queer eye for the streight guy")

OMG i've never been so embarrased in my life IM 15 FOR GODS SAKE

and she totaly shits all over me if i dont say thank you but if i do something for her i get shit all

no reason for me to want her to live


Posted by: at January 31, 2004 02:19 AM

my mum is sutch a bitch she is so jelous of me and it hurts me to say that i never rely wanna see her again and that i mean deep down in my heart i realy do love her but if once in a life time she actuly gave me a kiss or a few words to say she loved me maby the felings about her wold be a bit difforent me and my dad are rely close and she get rely fucking jelouse that he gives me money its hell wid her and im gunna explode if i dont get away frome her soon

Posted by: chelsie at February 10, 2004 08:25 PM

hi i posted one of the obove. im so happy my point of view is on the web cuz we had another argument (the stupid depressed b****)

i found a way to always win arguments. just look at if from the outside. pretend your standing on the sidelines then decide what you're gonna say that way you dont waste ure time sceaming about irrelevant things.

after my mum told me to go to my room and called me a bitch as i walked out i said "thanx" and seeing how i got the last word she sais "say sorry or your not going horseriding"


i still wish she was dead

Posted by: deb at February 17, 2004 06:01 AM

hi, if my mum wasnt my mum she's be one of those people you'd neva bother with and one of those people that when you saw them ya wanted to strangle them and wudnt come within 10 foot of but unfortunatly i have to catch sight of her every day. Ive never ever been close with my mum we are total 100% opposites and i hate her 100%. Every conversation we have turns into an argument or we can't agree. im 14 and i would say i am mature for my age and the thought of my mum hugging me or showing affections to me makes me shiver down the spine i can hardly look at her and the reasons i feel like this is just the small remarks she makes to everyone in ma family and most of all ME! for example this morning i said to her one day this week can we go out so i can get some new clothes? she replies like.... why!? your too fat for any clothes so i dont know why you should bother because nothing suits you. thanks mum, im already paranoid about my weight 24/4 that helped loads and she knows she gets to me she loves seeing my reaction and how much she gets to me day after day and when i ask if friends can come round or stay she sez stuff like hell no! those slaggy friends of yours arnt coming round i hate them they are annoyign so no! and the ironic thing is they like my mum! she is 2faced she is nice to them whenever she is near to them and it frustrates me that i see this. I would say i win arguemtns between uz both and tell her things ya wouldnt tell your mum i call her evil, she isnt a normal mum, you should change because one day youre guna be lonely because of the way you treat people and still she does nothing about how she is! i mean she must see because she pisses everyone off in the family about the way she naggs and goes on every SINGLE FUCKING DAY! she needs a reailty check coz i hate her! I HATE MY MUMMMMMMMMMMMM!

Posted by: frustrated child! at February 17, 2004 02:54 PM