:: 30Nov02 22:45 :: AH YES :: First off, squiZZle did ownage pics for me, they be cool so you must visit Slaves page. Looks scared again, right? :D Always looks scared on pics, but doesn't like it when I point it out. :P I've realised I still haven't fixed the Tests page... ok, now I have. Temporarily. Must also put the Favourites back online. Anyway. Oh yes, I wanted to show you my cool blinking eye which I made as a new EZboard icon just now... click here. And I've gotta moan about my darn keyboard with the space bar that regularly refuses to react. And the fact that you can't seem to buy ANY British keyboards in this country. French, German, Swiss, Belgian. Great. *grrrrr* Good chocolates, bad keyboards.
:: 30Nov02 15:45 :: TIME CAPSULE :: Guess what, I've managed to solve my two main IE6 problems, 1st that it wouldn't let me view the HTML source codes anymore and 2ndly that it would save all images as untitled.bmp. All you have to do is delete your temp. internet files (and set the cache to a smaller size to avoid it happening again). I've also bought myself a new car stereo which plays mp3s & CD-RWs, hopefully I'll have it installed on Monday. My old one is SO annoying, it keeps skipping ALL the freaking time.
:: 28Nov02 23:45 :: MJ FANS & SECTS :: There's something that I've been wanting to write about for a while now, namely the situation of MJ fans and how they are treated (and consquently behave) in a way similar to members of a sect. I don'tmean this in a "crazy nutters" way. Let me explain.
:: 27Nov02 21:45 :: BLISSFUL LAZINESS :: Yeah today was one of those days. I spent all morning in bed reading The Vampire Armand (then switching to Blood & Gold to get Marius' point of view of the events, then back to Armand). I'm slightly Akasha obsessed again now. I went rollerblading late last night though, the long way to the Crematorium and back, twice in fact. It was quite amusing cuz the second time round it was misty and the streets had started to become slightly icy. I was home at 1.30am, my mum would freak if she knew, but she doesn't. So I kinda deserved a lazy morning in bed. I have a sore back now (my legs are ok tho, apart from that bruise on my knee. HUGE bruise and no you're not getting pictures).
:: 26Nov02 18:45 :: REFLECTIONS :: No more excuses for not updating as my exams are all over now. Hum, how did it go you ask? Ugh I dunno, and anyway I'm not very good at judging myself. I could've been luckier with the texts I chose, I ended up doing a John Betjeman poem. Weird that, I was so adverse to poems, but it's actually so much easier to bullshit about poems than about prose texts. I'm good at bullshitting - but then bullshitting is not always what is required from you. So that's my main worry at the moment. Must stop freaking myself out over this.
:: 25Nov02 22:45 :: WAAAAAH!!! :: Did I mention I have an exam tomorrow? Well I have, and I have done diddly squat for it so far (well ok, read about 5 pages). It's only at 2.30 tho so I have most of tomorrow morning to study for it and stuff... I keep telling myself that will be enough. I slept until 3.00 today (well, I did get up for work, but then when straight back to bed. Oh sweet debauchery!). Yeah, so tomorrow is my final exam. Not important.
:: 24Nov02 21:45 :: DONEY-DIDDLY-DOO :: Yep that's it, it's all sorted, even Netscape can display my site now. Fabulous. Wish I'd done some serious work instead tho... shitty day... anyway, time for bed. I'm safe in bed.
:: 24Nov02 18:35 :: SO THERE :: See what I've wasted my day on? That's right, a completely new layout. It's totally unlike anything I've ever done before & it took a lot of work cuz I couldn't just change the frameset and the .css this time. *g* Not sure how much I like it... I mean I do like the look but it uses SSI so I can't just preview it offline... unless I use Dreamweaver. Yes, I got some help from an HTML Editor, that's the first time in something like 4 years! OK now I need to clean out my guinea pigs. I wonder if me BML will come online tonight. Bet not tho. BTW, feel free to give me some feedback ;)
:: 23Nov02 23:20 :: UPDATE ME! :: shouts my diary. Awright, awright. Was thinking about a redesign again, no result so far tho. Currently downloading dreamweaver as I got tired of counting <tr> and <td> tags. I did a cool test tho and thought I'd share the result with you...
Sorta fits. I was just thinking the other day about how I don't write highly poetical or deeply metaphorical diary entries or anything. *g* Just plain old boring information. OK, now lemme check how that download is coming along...
:: 22Nov02 0:25 :: ALL'S WELL... :: Bambi was good. Bambi was great. Bambi was so moving it made me cry. It was a good ending to a pretty awful week, MJ-wise. It's like all this tension came off... I feel better now, and it all seems less bleak. I am not so much thinking of the horrible things anymore. Thanks for your magic Michael :) And I've recorded it so I can watch it over and over again. BTW, MJ with glasses is the cutest thing!!! :D
:: 21Nov02 17:15 :: NEWS :: What do you want first? OK, the bad news is I didn't do too well in my exam. I found it freaking hard & comparing with others found that I got quite a bit of it wrong. The good thing within the bad news is that I was not the only one to find it difficult.
:: 20Nov02 23:45 :: MJ 'BABY DANGLING' RANT :: OK the MJ boards have been full of it. The press has been full of it. And guess what, during my 'random blog visits' tonight I have come across 3 different blogs that mentioned it (all from a "OMG what a wacko" perspective of course).
:: 20Nov02 16:30 :: LOO BOOKS :: If you've read my 100 unknown things (which are really only 20 things at the moment), you'll know that I always need something to read when I'm on the toilet. I know a lot of people do that - I myself have inherited the habit from my father. He used to have a basket full of random politcs & science magazines next to the toilet (I say used to because I haven't seen his toilet in 8 or so years. I assume it hasn't changed tho). I myself tend to go for little books of quotes, short stories, cartoons or columns. But I would never buy a book just for loo-reading - they're all books I've read before. I mean, whenever I buy a new book I want to read it more or less quickly, and I don't spend enough time on the john to satisfy that urge. So usually they're books I'm reading for the 3rd, 4th, 5th time, and as I have a short memory span I am able to enjoy them again and again because I'll forget what I've read after 2 or 3 weeks.
:: 19Nov02 20:30 :: YES :: Sometimes I can even laugh at myself, frantically switching between UK & Lux SIM card, refreshing the MJ boards and zapping between TV channels, all the while pitying myself and conversing with others who are pitying themselves... and pitying me while I pity them. Yes, it makes me chuckle at times. It's comical and sort of ridiculous. But I can't help it, it's depressing all the same. And yes I can be mature and factual and grown up too! Just not, um, all the time, and about everything. Live with it.
:: 19Nov02 19:15 :: BTW :: feeling slightly better now and just thought I'd point out that I have put a page with 3 Multiplicity pics online... for those who don't bother to check the Updates list on the main page. Oh, and there are two small films on the Pigs page too. There.
:: 19Nov02 18:00 :: DREAMS AND REALITY :: You have no idea what crap mood we're all in. We being the stay-at-home MJ fans. So Michael Jackson is in Berlin and I am at home. I am getting regular updates about what he's been up to, what's happening next and so on, plus pictures of him at airport, him at hotel, him at window and so on... and if feels sooo wrong!!! I am supposed to be there with him and the other fans - that's the natural state of things in my warped little world, and this just feels horrible. I know that's sorta pathetic, and that my therapist would say I live in a dream world and that I should try to find something else to get a kick out of... but this is my reality at the moment, and I can't change it.
:: 18Nov02 20:00 :: NOT AGAIN :: God I'm so bored. You know, this is really awful, I never seem to be able to do my work until the very last minute, but because I feel I should be working I don't really wanna do anything else either. Anything really time-consuming. So I'm sat here at home, watching telly or surfing or posting on messageboards or doing little updates on the site or reading... but never doing anything very productive. Just wasting time. That's got to be one of my worst character traits. All of this being part of my laziness some way or other.
:: 18Nov02 13:40 :: LMAOOOO :: OMG this is funny!!! It's from Private Eye's 'Dumb Britain', where they print the dumbest (wrong!) answers from TV Quiz shows each week.
:: 17Nov02 23:10 :: HIATUS UPDATE :: That's quite funny, right after I rant about never updated review sites, I come across Rusty Bucket Reviews where the webmistress (you've gotta love that word) complains about the same thing. Cute site btw, go visit, there are some more funny rants & other extras. It's not just "your usual review" page :)
:: 17Nov02 18:10 :: PERSONAL WEBSITES :: OK I have to write about personal webpages again and them little "trends" and "fashions" and stuff. See, I find it quite funny, how it evolved. I mean these (mostly!) female websites have been mushrooming like mad for, I dunno, a year or two. They're all over the place, and altho these are all individuals, many with special experiences or problems, often I feel like they're all the same. They follow the same rules, belong to the same (or similar) cliques, offer the same pages (cast, profile, pics and whatnot), and most important of all they all follow the same trends (I've ranted about this before).
:: 17Nov02 12:45 :: WHOOPEEEEEE!!! :: Two T-shirts done. You can check them out on the brand new T-shirts page, which is now part of the Gallery, that well known section of Clarissaweb. Um anyway. BTW I've noticed that lots of people link to Myowndamn.biz instead of Clarissaweb.co.uk. It's kind of annoying, cuz what's the use of my wonderful Clarissaweb domain if nobody uses it? It's all my counter's fault. Might get rid of it. OK, time for lunch my lovelies! :)
:: 16Nov02 23:30 :: KNOWLEDGE & EDUCATION :: Today was a good day. A day to start my Positivity Diary (lol). I have done all the stuff I meant to do and e-mailed some extra people as well. That's satisfactory. I will go to bed with a sense of achievement. I only wish the weather was better.
:: 16Nov02 18:00 :: MULTIPLICITY :: OK so this wasn't on the list, but I had to try it anyway. I've stolen the idea from EmotionEric (very funny site btw, so check it out!). It's really quite simple to do and sorta fun... er anyway, it's a pic and you must click here to see it! It was fun to do, so I might do a series in different locations & give it its own page. Tell me what you think :P
:: 16Nov02 12:50 :: T-SHIRTS :: yeah so I'm still stuck online instead of doing stuff, but I thought I'd explain the T-shirt stuff for those who don't read Cartman's Corner. You remember the Raven shirt perhaps. I meant to do more shirts after that but never had any inspiration... until I decided to do some with funny quotes. Check here for a whole list of them. I've finally decided to go for three of them... you'll see which ones in the end.
:: 16Nov02 12:30 :: DOING STUFF :: I have to do all sorts of stuff, so it is time for a To Do list... and here it is:
OK that's it. *sigh* I will cross things out as I finish them. *heehee* Sorry for abusing my diary for this irrelevant stuff, but it gives me the impression that someone is watching over me and will tell me off if I don't do it. So go ahead, shout at me in the Comments if nothing is crossed out by 14.00CET. :P
:: 14Nov02 22:00 :: MOBY QUOTE :: american foreign policy is so utterly fucked up that it's actually kind of mind boggling. supporting despots just because they support our prurient and short-sighted interests? (Source) So true. Oh so true.
:: 14Nov02 20:00 :: YAWN & SIGH :: I should be updating more often, uh? And have longer entries or something. I dunno, I'm just not feeling very inspired about this at the moment. I think I've got the beginning of a cold too. Nice prospect. I washed my guinea pig today cuz she was smelling. She wasn't very impressed, I don't think I'll do it again that soon. Thing is tho, with the long hair around the bum... hm yeah I'll spare you the details, I'm sure you know what I mean.
:: 13Nov02 14:00 :: YAAAAWN :: I've started thinking about a new layout, but after spending 1/2 hour looking around other websites for inspiration, I got bored and gave up. *g* I think I'll go shopping instead, maybe I'll find some inspiration there. My mum got my first DSL phone bill and freaked out, tho I had told her how much it was gonna be when I subscribed. Now she says I have to pay for it myself, which is fair enough, except I don't have any money. I mean I do, but not for that kinda stuff. *g*
:: 12Nov02 22:00 :: MOBY SIGN & PIGS... :: Yeah so I was just gonna have a go at y'all for not telling me that Kal's Moby pic didn't show up, but then I found out me BML did tell me but I never saw it. I've fixed it now so you all have to visit it again... here. Other than that, not much to report. Went for a walk with my mum, went to see my psychologist again, heard that someone was bitching behind my back at school (the bastard, he'll pay), oh and I took some cute pics of my pigs which I will share with you now. Check the two-headed monster, top right! :D
:: 11Nov02 23:00 :: SO WHAT'S IT THIS TIME? :: Not sure. Been shopping and got myself a fab new jacket. Basically the same I've had before, which was this jacket I inherited from my mum and it has been falling apart for years now, but I never managed to find another one like it and I loved it SO much. Anyway, today I have found, so I am happy. And it was dead cheap too. Um, I also got myself Moby's DVD, and boring stuff like hairspray. Oh, and modelling clay. *ggg* Childish I know but it was dead cheap and SO nice and colourful. Might try to be creative with it. Might not. *yawn* Oh btw, the heating's working again. Night!
:: 10Nov02 23:30 :: VIDEO UPDATE :: It's time for a video update again. Don't expect to much tho. *g* CLICK HERE to view. Thanks.
:: 10Nov02 2:00 :: MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT :: Staying up so late is bad, mmkay? Especially when you have to get up at 8.00 on Monday mornings... need to get back on schedule. Anyway, I've been fairly productive today, tho not as much as I would've liked. I didn't update the Pics of Places site like I'd planned, and I didn't get any e-mails or letters written. But I did a bit of updating around this site, and I made this silly Test which y'all have to take and tell me what you got (that's what the comments feature is for ok?).
:: 09Nov02 10:50 :: MOBY - THE DAY AFTER (lol) :: I'm feeling a bit weird right now - all wobbly and a little dizzy. Maybe food will help. Anyway, Moby was freaking awesome. I met up with a girl from school & her friend who had tickets, but they stayed at the back and I obviously had to work my way thru to the front (I need the manic atmosphere of the front rows at a concert - the jumping around and clapping and occasional screaming, and the heat and the excitement and the friction... ok enough *lol*). I ended up in row 5 or 6... it wasn't very crammed but I didn't dare to push past more people cuz I know how much it irritates me when other people do it.
:: 08Nov02 12:40 :: MOOOOOOBYYYYYYYYY :: OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG I've won a ticket for Moby's concert tonight!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG (etc ad lib.)... That's soooo fucking awesome!!!!!! You know I never have any luck, right? Well if you don't I'm telling you now. So I never thought I'd win (tho I entered twice)... but I DID! That probably means that we are meant to be, him and me. Or sth. OK it's just too cool. Please excuse me while I scream a little. :D
:: 07Nov02 17:40 :: RUDOLF AUGSTEIN :: is dead. He was chief editor and then publisher of German magazine Der Spiegel and played a very important role in the German press. I more or less grew up with that man and this has come as somewhat of a shock, esp. as it was quite unexpected. I know it won't mean much to most of you, but I wanted to mention it.
:: 05Nov02 22:00 :: EXAM'S OVER :: Yeah so the first bit is done. I have no idea how it went. We were all majorly stressed and panicked and freaked out, but in the end none of us collapsed or had a nervous breakdown or anything. The weird thing is, we're all enemies in a way because there's 14 of us and they're only gonna take 8 of us... so you kinda don't want the others to succeed, you know? The topics were quite easy and I chose one I know quite a lot about (there were two to choose from):
words on the page' and/or 'a text in context'?
Only problem is, they wanted us to develop our own ideas and I don't really have own ideas about that... I mean I can agree with such-and-such's ideas, but that's about it. Then again it's pretty stupid cuz there is nothing new to be said about a topic like that.
So we'll see how it went. The next part is on Thursday, that's translation so there is nothing I could study for that. Then the last two parts are in a fortnight, provided I passed these. Just so you can get ready for another bit of grumpiness, stressedness and updatelessness. And now I will be off to bed with a good book. A book I enjoy, not one I have to read. Yay. I'll see if I feel inspired to do something creative tomorrow.
::04Nov02 22:15 :: STRESS :: I apologize for the lack of updates, I am seriously stressed because of the exam tomorrow. I'll write again tomorrow night or Wednesday at the latest.
::03 Nov02 14:00 :: MOBY *SIGH* :: So now I find out that Moby will be playing in Luxembourg on Friday. Why did no one tell me? Why didn't I check his site way in advance? Why am I such a stupid, dizzy cow?!?!?! Obviously the tickets are sold out now... well online they are. I might have a quick look around town tomorrow. LOL oh God I'm so stupid. *sigh* Guess I could wait outside and do the groupie thing instead. LOL. *sigh* God I'm so stupid I could KICK myself!!!!!! Aaaargh! *sob*
:: 02Nov02 21:20 :: THE BANANA :: As a tribute to the great German band Die Ärzte, I will now share with you a suggestive animation I made 2 years ago, in a fit of... dunno. Some sort of fit. As usual, it is available in DivX (66kb) and RealVideo (47kb). *g* The DivX one is clearer btw (for some strange reason). Originally it was a .gif, so watch it on repeat to get the most out of it. *g* Explaining the Ärzte link is too much to ask for. Anyway, they are great geniuses. *g*
:: 01Nov02 23:50 :: RANT ABOUT HALLOWEEN... AND MY HOME COUNTRY :: here we go again, another day another life. Or sth. I've finally corrected that school paper, still not done any studying tho. Well, there's more than three days left. *ahem* Halloween sucks btw. We had kids trick-or-treating at our door last night, and that's like, so not on cuz in this country we have a day in February called Liichtmeß (pronounce Leeshtmas) which is basically the same thing - kids begging for sweets (or preferably change) at your door, except at least they have to sing! So now we have it twice a year, wahey. You might remember that I'm not too fond of kids.