I would slit my wrists first

(the title is a Michael Jackson quote. the entry is from a convo with soon-to-be-my d)

Wam : you know when I have my "extreme" phases (as in, extreme moods), I do stuff that I don't understand 30mins/5hrs/2days later...
Wam : like SAYING things.... reacting in ways that I don't usually do.. doing crazy stuff like going for a walk into the sea at 1am
Wam : I wonder if I'll ever get extreme enough to kill myself in one of those phases
Wam : no maybe not... but it's all so spontaneous and... impulsive
Wam : and I've been SO close... and maybe all that kept me from it was that I did not feel quite crap enough
Wam : and personally I believe that quite a few suiciders... very many in fact... act on impulse like that
Wam : do you think there is a suicidal person and a non-suicidal person?
Wam : or that EVERYONE is capable of suicide if the occasion is given?