My imaginary friend... and obsessions

I had a moment of epiphany this morning. OK, no, crappy term, but anyway, I realised something. You know how them online questionnaires sometimes ask if you had an imaginary friend, and I always said "no" - well I suddenly remembered this morning that I did use to have one! Not a "real" one that I pretended was sat next to me or anything like that, but I used to have, like, dialogues in my head with this girl. She had the same name as one of my aunts - now I'm trying to think if I was obsessed with my aunt or sth. I think I used to find her pretty cool - but I'd completely repressed that somehow, as nowadays I think she's a bit of a stupid bint. That's most fascinating tho, it just suddenly came back to me - I'm sure I'd "forgotten" about that for 15yrs at least.

Obsessions are a fascinating thing tho, and fancying people and stuff. Like, you've known someone for years, and suddenly, WHAM, you're obsessed with them ("obsession" being my term of choice here. I could call it "fancying" or "infatuation" or any other term). You see them in a completely different light, I mean, nothing has changed about them, only about the way you perceive them. It's gotta be something subconsciously deliberate, surely. But it really makes no sense. And then all of a sudden it's all over again. It's like getting back to normal again - like "oh yeah, that's all there is to them, true. What was the big deal?" Ah, but it spices up your life while it lasts - maybe that's all there is to it.

I'll be off to Bern on Wednesday to visit Suha (until Sat)! Am a bit scared about the 5hr train journey, but I shall take my GBA and a book or two, and my mp3 player. That's pretty much it. Off to visit Gaby tonight. Still not finished my application form for that damn job. Ha ha.