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Tue, Jan 17 2006 @ 22:58   //   Category: Me about me  

Yet another deep insight from yours truly...

I can talk to someone for hours and days about what they do in certain situations and why they do it... but when confronted with their actual behaviour I'm unable to guess or understand their reactions at all. And I think the reason is that I don't trust them to have been honest in the first place. It could all have been an act, a lie that is part of their true way of reacting to situations.

It's only once I've been through the cycles a few times, when I've witnessed the behaviour again and again, that I find it easier to predict, and think I know what the other person's motives may be. That doesn't necessarily make it that much easier to deal with.. but a little bit nonetheless.

So what's the point of talking about it in the first place? I dunno. I do wish I could trust people. Let down my guard more. Not be so damn convinced they'll disappoint me soon enough anyway. It does become a self-fulfilling prophecy I guess. But it always happens. And doesn't make trusting easier.

Bla. I know I'm impossible, but on the other hand... I'm not really asking for that much am I? :-?