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Thu, Mar 31 2005 @ 23:38   //   Category: Randomness   //   9 comments

One of the Crowded House guys died. I only really know Weather With You and Don't Dream It's Over, but I have a strong bond to both songs, the former cuz it was on MTV all the time when I watched it all the time, and the latter cuz it's so wonderfully depressing and cuz it played in BH90210 when Dylan & Kelly split up (shut up!). So the title's my tribute to him. Oh btw he committed suicide.

I'm in a weird state of mind at the moment. Right now and in general. In general I have to say I've been better recently- better than when I was really low back in January. Funny tho, I had a long talk with my mum the other night about stuff that relates to that entry - I got really angry cuz here I am still trying to fight (or keeping up the pretence at least) and it looks like my brother, who's been lying & cheating all his life, cheated on everone he knows and achieved jack shit is now being doted on and lavished with love and attention for perhaps trying to improve. So why the fuck did I bother? Maybe I should also have disappointed them all my life to then be rewarded for the slightest little attempt at achieving anything at all!

Ugh. This shit would be an entry on its own - no in fact it would be a whole fucking blog on its own. I wasn't even gonna write about this at all. So what else has been going down? (lol) Lo left on Tuesday morning.. Monday we went shopping some more and also to the Sea Life Centre where they have the cutest nosy little rays!!! :x

[...] Such was the entry, then I got text and didn't quite feel like continuing. Thought I'd post this at least since I am kinda unlikely to post for a while and people have been demanding updates. So here is one, now be quiet. Thanks.

People say...

It's weird when someone famous dies cus its not like you even know them (personally) but it still makes u sad.
When I was younger I fancied the pants off an actor called Jonathan Brandis.I liked him for years and even to this day I have a really old poster of him.Now i'm not a celebrity-fan sort of person, so it was quite a big deal for me. Anyway I found out he commit suicide in november 2003. He was only 27.
I was so shocked when I found out, it was really upsetting actually. I feel kinda stupid for thinking about it so much but he was part of my childhood so it was just strange to hear what had happened.

Posted by: shaziak on Fri April 1, 2005 at 13:11

I remember him!! He played in Seaquest or sth like that right?? I didn't know he'd committed suicide.

Posted by: Clarissa on Fri April 1, 2005 at 13:17

I live in Melbourne and my friend lives around the corner from the park where Paul Hester died.
I always seemed to see him around and he was such a lovely guy, really funny too.
It really affected me when I heard the news. It just is so so sad. I can't think about it without my heart sinking.

Posted by: Olivia on Fri April 1, 2005 at 13:57

Citz- Yeah thats him! :( I'm glad u know of him cus he wasn't very famous in England. Most my ates never knew who he was when I used to go on about him.
I luved Seaquest! he was in the Never Ending Story 2 and Stephen Kings IT aswell as Fall into Darkness among other things.
From what other fans and his parents have said he was going through depression but his friends didn't realise how bad it was. Loads of people say being a 'child star' really affected him cus he wasn't getting the work he used to. He was an only child aswell (I feel so bad for his parents)

Posted by: Shaziak on Fri April 1, 2005 at 16:38

Apparently, Paul Hester was an atheist... (just pour info)


Posted by: Val on Sun April 3, 2005 at 9:57

I thought at first "who's Paul Hester?" but he's the drummer uh? And aha. Hooray for suicidal atheists.

Posted by: Clarissa on Sun April 3, 2005 at 10:01

What?!!! Jonathan Brandis died as well? I didn't know about that! Shit, I thought you guys were talkingbout Paul Hester - now I got it that it was Jonathan who was on Seaquest etc... Damn

Posted by: Val on Sun April 3, 2005 at 10:13

I thought this entry was gonna be about the Crowded House guy..?

Posted by: The BML on Mon April 4, 2005 at 0:07

No. The entry title was a tribute to him, the rest was about me. *lol*

Posted by: Clarissa on Mon April 4, 2005 at 15:04