Clarissa Blag
if you A me, do I not B?
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It was very traumatic! 
I got a blue screen of death while watching a video, and then just… nothing. He was still running, but not doing anything. Restarting/letting him rest didn’t help. More » -
… while I read Harry Potter.
[update] Done by the way.
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Great choice of song VegaPet©!
Very cool video too, tho I didn’t understand much, since I’ve not watched Smallville in ages. Lex definitely did look rather crazy tho.
See, I can comment on your videos anyway, muahaha.
I like cryptic entries…
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I’ve just discovered that the computer that runs S.I.M.O.N. in Tomb Raider was a VAIO.
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and although I should probably use the good weather to go for a leisurely walk (to Asda) I am also mildly in an updating mood and those are rare these days (esp. if they don’t consist of suidical thoughts) so I’ll do/start this first and then go for a walk. *ramble ramble* More »
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Brace yourselves for the massivest photo entry ever!! So as previously said, I brought pics from Lux. I scanned them. I wrote long rambling captions for them. And here they are. Ordered somewhat thematically, and slightly chronologically. [they're over 3MB in total, so may take a little while to load] More »
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I don’t want to die because I am (no one asked me, heh), and deciding to cease being now would hurt people, and be inconvenient, and it would be an active decision that requires effort. But if I had the choice now, I’d rather not have been to start with.
Or if I have to “be”, then not the way I am - unable to deal with what life throws at me - all those inevitable blows that other people seem to be able to “learn from and move on” when to me (almost 30 years old) they just serve as another example of how I cannot cope with the simplest things as soon as emotions are involved.
And right now I soooooo want to shut down, hide away, call in sick at work and not speak to anyone for days. But I know work is the only sane constant left in my life at the moment. And being stuck with my own thoughts would just make things so much worse anyway.
So I will keep going. But I’m so frustrated I’m back in this place.